liladrienobody

I want..

2011-09-26T20:32:00.000-07:00

I want us to be an amazing couple. Let's go for a drive. Why? No particular reason, just for the fun of it. Let's skip the drama outside and stay in bed for a couple more hours. We don't even have to talk. Just being able to smell your sweet scent is enough communication for me . Let's take a bunch of pictures. So we can document every waking second together. Let's keep finishing each others sentences, make pancakes for breakfast, walk to the park. We don't need to fight anymore. We don't need to make schedules and appointments. We don't need to care about what others think of us. Let us live free from judgement or sadness. Ignore their hate, accept my love. I want us to be free. Let us stay home wherever we choose to make it. Because frankly, home is wherever I'm with you. <3

people-

2011-03-17T15:47:00.000-07:00

wonder why people leave..
sweetheart, it's cause you keep begging them to stay.
you give an inch, they'll take a mile. and drop you.

2011-01-09T14:33:00.000-08:00

I don't think you're going to be very happy when i tell you that if we take another shot at this, i won't want you to see her ever again.
its not because im insecure.
but because i struggle to trust you anymore.

2011-01-08T23:33:00.000-08:00

just because i smile, doesn't mean im happy. :\\
i don't necessarily want to be happy; i just want to stop being miserable.
life is just happening right now. i keep getting in trouble. i can't take it anymore.
someone just shoot me in the middle of nowhere, but please make sure i have my phone on me so my parents can freaking GPS track that too...and find me dead.
You always say im happy, and good at what i do, but what you'll never realize, im a damn good actress too.

faces. haha.

2011-01-07T22:53:00.000-08:00

smile dude.

i hate my smile.

high, and you? :P jk.

Strong, Inarticulate Hands

2011-01-07T22:26:00.000-08:00

you mustn't be afraid to dream a little bigger darling.

i wonder what its like to be someones everything. <3

I miss your strong hands and your inability to tell me what was going on between us.

I will let you rest your head on my shoulders, until you find my replacement.

If you make decisions based on other people’s reactions, then you make very boring choices.-heath ledger.

MY HEAD IS SO EMPTY, BUT MY MIND IS RACING.

all at the same time.

I don’t know what to think or what to believe anymore.
I don’t feel like putting forth an effort in anything.
It’s not like I haven’t tried to fix it in the past..
It’s just been trial and error with all of these different medications
and I feel like it’s just messing with my brain MORE.
Why can’t I just be like everyone else?
Why can’t I just WANT friends?
Why can’t I just WANT a job?
Why don’t I want to try…

this is how i used to be. thank god for change &

thank god for those who care. <3

crazed.

2011-01-06T20:44:00.000-08:00

i drew/wrote this last night. you can even ask my mom. lets just say, i get bored..easily. :)

ugly blog is ugly. :(

2011-01-03T20:08:00.000-08:00

natalytotherescue asked: Oh I know they're different. I was meaning cancer in general, but then breast cancer was the only one that came to my mind quick. haha, but then I thought, skin cancer. And wouldn't it be bad to have skin cancer, and get a tattoo?

I would imagine so.. any other type of cancer I’d probably still get tattoos :D

megan fox is so pretty. :)

not so much actually. but, yeah. :)

this is how i do-

2011-01-02T19:22:00.000-08:00

first off,, happy new year! 2011!

time is flying by like its nothing.

good thing, & bad thing.

challenge of 2011: do something to make yourself stand out.

being recognized for what makes you stand out,

is the best way to make YOU love yourself.

fact:it is proven that once you step out of your element, & have somebody there to witness it,

everything about your mind, body, & soul changes in the best way possible.

human acceptance is the best way to accept yourself. <3

the name is pronounced ayee-dree. point proven.. :\

i wish i could take pictures like that. :) so legit.

reminds me of good times with the cousins back in the day.

fact: one of thee most beautiful parts of the Chinese culture.

fact:you really do.

fact:amazing song. <3

sweat pants, hair tied, chillin' with no make-up on.

That's when you're the prettiest, I hope that you don't take it wrong. Drake.

fact:only song that can make me cry. :(

my happiness comes from seeing life without struggle.

nick minaj.

fact:this quote has more truths than most of you realize.

ARE YOU STILL HAPPY?

happier than me?

what do you have to say to me now?

fact:im dying to see this movie.

fact:my favorite thing to do.

fact:i know this pretty woman. Her name is Skye, and she goes to my school. whoa! i know a model? Crazy. I know two, actually. :)

change is amongst us-

2010-12-29T21:38:00.000-08:00

let me start off by stating that i REALLY need to do something new to my hair. It's been far too long since i've had actual color to it. But to be honest, i'm a bit scared to change things up again.

that may be simply because of conformity, or possibly something that none of you people would ever want to begin to understand. i'm a different kind of human being, but it's only a good thing.

everyone tries to "fit in", and be "normal". and to be honest, i used to care about "fitting in"..

nowadays, more than ever before, i do fit in.

& it feels really good to do so.

but, the thing i do not understand is..

why do people feel that they must change themselves, in order to fit in?

because i haven't changed who i am, and people still accept me.

lets be honest: im a complete weirdo at times.

but no one seems to care much anymoreee. i have more friends than i ever have had. :)

so i have decided i am sticking to what i know best: being ME.

ideas for hair: hmmmm. :\

i KNOW that i have done the red before, but that was an awkward color of red.

i think if i darkened it up a bit, it would look better. and not just as an outer color. :)

Ohh, and about the tattoo. That is definitely something i am interested in.

Hmmm, this looks like the ideal meal for me.

I'm a fatty. :P except not.

And to be honest, i probably would only eat only two of those things.

But that looks incredibly appealing at the moment.

Feed me. Im a starving child. :)

this is sooo my kind of kitty.

suchh a cool cat. :P

oh, same with that awkward looking thing below.

don't ask what it is, i honestly have no clue. :)

i agree with this vvvv 110%. :)

ive been having a terrible case of this lately: vvvvv

DO NOT TELL ME I AM DEPRESSED.

or i will personally kick the crap out of you. :)

just saying.

bye for now. facebook is calling me. :)

i am one-

2010-12-25T22:55:00.000-08:00

"I like flaws and feel more comfortable around people who have them.

I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions."

-Augusten Burroughs (Magical Thinking)

It is Christmas 2010 at 11:50pm.

This year has gone by so fast, so fast that it breaks my heart.

It's taken me many years of my life to realize that life is not going to wait for anyone.

Slow down, for anyone. :(

And i wish things were different then they are right now.

Don't get me wrong, i absolutely adore my life, and the people in it.

But i am not happy with myself one bit.

The crazy things i have actually believed, the lies, the confrontations between the people I love and myself.

I wish i could just hit rewind and take back all the heart breaks i have caused.

In my own family.

I have been a selfish, ignorant child, wanting to break free and grow up.

And now, more than anything i just want to make it all slow down, and take it all back.

Enjoy the good times. Enjoy life.

Dear 2011, things are changing around here. Big time.

And i promise you all, its for the best. :)